12 Months to Goals (36)
Have you ever woke up one day and realized that you were doing something that you shouldn't be doing. Today I noticed that I was doing so many busy things in a day for so many people who were capable of doing those things on a regular basis and it is wearing me out. Also, it is making these people rely on me when they need to be stepping up and relying on themselves. So today, I stopped and very delicately backed off with love. I am not sure at first if these individuals realized they were doing it, but after the edgyness wore off it went very well.
I have to say it is so easy for me to just jump in and get things done. I have been on go mode for so long. What I am realizing is I am hurting myself because it is wearing me out, but I am also hurting those indiivduals. It is good for them to experience those responsibilities at any age. It always gives a sense of self and accomplishment with any task. Think about it if the easiest tasks for yourself were taken away and you weren't able to do them, how would it make you feel. Try it. Not fun. I am really learning to purge and back off the things that just aren't necessary that are making me so incredibly busy. I am over busy. I want my life filled with whatever I do I do extremely well and with purpose. I am not about quanitity I am about quality.
I am feeling so much better tonight than I did last night. I went to a workshop for parenting this morning. I always learn so much. Just one of the things I learned was until children reach 8 or the third grade, they cannot understand before hand what kind of harm their words or actions can caus. They call their actions before then accidental because they certainly are not intentional. After that age it is basically game on. Man what a great peice of information for any parent.
I am trying so hard to be a great parent. Most importantly I want to be a loving parent to my son. I want to badly for him to do well in life. Sometimes I have to really tell myself to breath and relax. He has to find his way in life, obviously with my guidance and help until he gets older. It is so amazing to to watch him grow. I love when he succeeds. It is so hard to watch him struggle. I always have to tell myself, this is a learning curve. I won't always be there, I need to let him make affordable mistakes so he doesn't make unaffordable mistakes when he is older. I got that saying from a Parenting with Love and Logic course I took.
So many times in life we have the chance to not react badly in a situation, but we just do it anyway because we are in the heat of the moment. I guess we should always stop and ask ourselves is this affordable or unaffordable. Am I going to regret this in the future. Why am I or any of us in such a hurry. I need to slow down and take each day slowly as it comes. I want quality in my life on a daily basis and it is up to me to control the clock like that always say in football. Slow the game down.
In a way I cannot believe it is day 237 and in another way it feels like it is definitely day 237. I guess I cannot believe it is day 237 because time just goes by so fast anymore. It seems that I blink and poof another year has gone by. I can believe it is day 237 because the change and transformation that I have come to has been trememdous in so many areas of my life.
The one area I want to get stronger in are my workouts. I really truly believe me takiing my professional life in an additional direction is going to excite and stimulate that in me. I know I am going to have so much fun doing that. I actually cannot wait. I think this next week I am going to start working on the actual cert that I want to do and then go from there. Should be fun and interesting. I am trying to reach for the stars or at least the stars in my little world.
I have a good friend and I would say one of my Memtors that always is telling me Tracy, you HAVE to take some time out for yourself. He always tells me how he knows me and when I get some time to myself i always choose to work. Unfortunately, in my mind if i do that then i feel like i am getting ahead and i don't have so much pressure getting my job duties completed. But, it comes at a price. I become grumpy and irritable. Things aren't as easy as when i am rested.
I am actually coming to the point where it is the quality of life that is most important to me. It isn't whether I am getting my stuff done. I don't want to grind my way through life anymore. I have spent the last twenty years grinding. I want to take the time to enjoy work and work ahead of deadlines to release the pressure. And just stop and smell the roses daily. That is what I am talking about. If I master that, what a huge change that will be in my life.
We had such a fun day today. I through my first birthday party for a ten year old girl at the gym. She wanted a Zumba party and it was great. I tell you I love working with kids and seeing the excitment in their eyes. It is so refreshing. If there was a way to bottle that pure excitement up it would be priceless.
I did some plyometric trianing today and it was a lot easier than I thought it was going to be. I tell you the eating plan I am on is absolutely perfect for me. Everyone is different and we all have to find what works. I am just so greatful that I finally found mine.
I came up with a new goal while watching the class today. I don't want to watch anymore, I want to get back in the game. I have been in the back office so much I want to start working towards new clients and maybe classes. We will see. I am going to check into some continuing education credits for group fitness. I might do Zumba, Yoga and who knows. I am going to the trade show in March to see what is hot and new and make my decision from there. This should be a lot of fun. Fun is something I could really use.
Myself, my Mother, and my Group Fitness Coordinator from Aurora all went to a Health Fair today at my son's school. I am so very impressed with the staff and the students at this school. If this is our future in this country, I am so excited to see where we are going. They are so bright and fun. I always learn so much when we do these type of things.
My Group Fitness Coordinator taught a class type setting geared towards showing kids that going out on the play ground is exercise as long as you are moving. Exercise can be fun if you are playing soccor. We wanted to open up their minds to how easy it can be to be healthy and have an active life.
Then it came to my part. I had this handout that we gave them and it was a blank picture of a kid with five different places to write. On the top it said "I choose to believe in me". I defined the word believe for them which is -confidence in the truth. They wrote that down. During the class we had them stop to rest and write down one item that they loved about themselves five times. So by the time they were worn out it was time for me to talk to them. I told them that it is their choice to believe what they wanted too. They can believe what someone might be saying about them that might not be nice, or they can believe the truth. It is their choice.
I told them that if there was one thing that I wanted to take away from this today was to know their "Top Five". The Top five things that they loved about themselves. I told them that over the last twenty years I have trained hundreds of adults and children. The one thing that I noticed is how defeited and beat down a lot of them were. I told them that I went and listened to a panel of teenagers and they gave us their perspective on how to handle stress in the school. All of the children wanted to know what they had to say. The Teenagers said to feel sorry for those that put them down because they usually don't feel very good about themselves, and to focus on the future and where they are going because school is only a tiny part of their life.
I challenged them to focus on what was the truth when things get tough but also before a test at school. It is always easier to do well when we feel good about ourselves. The other thing was to challenge themselves to look for the "top five" of everyone in their class. If they did that, everyone would rise to the occasion and there is no telling what they could do. Coudn't we all learn a lesson from this?
This has been a crazy busy week. It kind of feels like a spring and a marathon all at once. It is good though, I am accomplishing so much. I have been completely ahead of the game with all of my deadlines. I am planning ahead so I don't have to go in emergency mode all of the time. It is just a steady climb to make them all. I love the phrase, "failure to prepare is preparing to fail."(Unknown author)
Tomorrow I get to stop and take my son to the Stock Show with his school. They are going oon a field trip and I am volunteering with some other Mom's and Dad's. It should be a lot of fun just to get out. That is one area that i need to definitely work on is having a good time. I am in such constant go all of the time. People that know me always say that I need to focus on having some fun. I completely agree. If not life will just pass me by.
Today I lost to one of my family members to a long time illness. I am more concerned about my Grandmother and my Great Aunt than myself. They all were so close. I am happy to hear though that everything in his life was peaceful, settled and resolved before he passed.
I tell you I am trying to live my life as if it was my last. What I mean by that, treat everyone with respect so there isn't anything to settle. To be good to myself and to try and take care of myself the best I can for as long as I can.
One of the most important things I believe for everyone to find is a purpose bigger than themselves. Intentionally find ways to be a hero and make a difference in other lives. Sometimes it is such a small gesture but the fact that someone actually paid attention to that person can be life changing. Be a hero.
Today i went to the Chiropractor and was adjusted for the first time this year. Wow I really needed it. I am on the right track with my therapy for my neck. It is feeling much much better.
I have been doing my readings in the bible like I wanted. At least I have a plan for it and it is in place. Part of setting goals is once it is a goal, writing a daily plan so you nip away at the goal a little at a time so it isn't a huge undertaking.
It was interesting, today I spoke to a teacher at my son's school. She is a body type that usually is more suseptable to Osteoporosis. (A disease that is dealy to women that has to do with Bone denisty.) She slipped today and said wow my husband goes to my gym but I just really don't like working out. I politely asked if she wanted me to be truthful to her. When it came down to it she started telling me about how her body isn't as strong as it used to be and how her knees were beginning to hurt. I proceeded to ask her to think about something. why would you dislike to do something that is going to help you live a much more productive life. Or why do you dislike something that is going to benefit you in any way. Look at the big picture. A woman who weight trains increases bone density which results into less chance of getting Osteoporosis. Something to think about.
When looking at setting goals. I want to see what end result I want and then make a plan and a good attitude towards achieving that goal. One day at a time.
I am so proud of my Dad. He has really changed his diet and is going for it. Nothing inspires me more than a person working so hard for change especially when I know how hard this is for him. they both are in the kitchen cooking up a storm. They are having to reteach themselves how to eat and prepare food. I have to say they are doing quite well with it.
Tomorrow is my day to get everything back on track as well. My eating has been good, the workouts I have to say has suffered over the Holidays. That is all changing tomorrow. I am back on track. I am getting back on track with my therapy.
I downloaded a book on my kindle that I have on my iPad for the Bible reading in a years. So I have a plan for that and have started. I also have downloaded an app for peaceful meditation. This is nothing weird it is just to calm down and stop each day. My massage therapist always tells you BREATH. I have a tendency to stop breathing and holding my breath. I can actually say that is really helping.